It is Time.
It may be terrible timing, but it is nonetheless time.
I am going to leave my current job. Since this is a small company and I have some personal regard for my boss and thus for the success of his business, my hope is not to storm out of here or state a forceful two weeks’ notice. Instead, I want to sit down and tell him that I’d like to give my two weeks’ notice, but I am also aware the company is in a delicate position and might suffer from abrupt personnel changes right now, so I’d like to negotiate my departure from the company with him.
I’m extremely nervous about doing this, although I have little reason to be. Earlier this year, my boss gave me four hours of notice before going off the grid for thirty days and I was left to run the place entirely on my own. As a private investigator, he values honesty above all else, and I know he would appreciate me telling it like it is instead of trying to sugarcoat things for him.
I’ve been unhappy in this job for a very long time for various reasons, but have stayed since it feels like such a family. I work for a married couple, after all, the Big Sister tendencies in me have built a loyalty, for better or worse, to this place. But unlike those who share my genetics, these are people I can actually leave.
I just want to do it right. Respectfully. Truthfully. With an intact reference, and without throwing things into chaos (which is what the previous office manager did by quitting abruptly a little over a year ago).
Also, I’m totally nervous, and in a weird irony-less patch of possible delusion, I’m looking to a group of people I’ve never even met, on the internet, for reassurance.
And then I’ll be back in a couple of weeks with some rambles about a Motown song or something, regardless.
